50 Days and counting

Assalamualaikum.

 

Tinggal lagi 3 minggu nak habis DPPA ni. The pressure is now on our shoulders to complete all the assignments and tasks given. Hopefully ada lah masa nak buat all that kan. At this time jugak, we are preparing for our Minggu Sintesis at the end of our training nanti. But before that, kitorang akan join 2 minggu praktikal kat relevant ministries yang dah kitorang pilih awal sem dulu. Harap2 aku dapatlah join ministry yang aku pilih tu.

 

Speaking about DPPA ni, aku nak menzahirkan rasa syukur yang tak terhingga sebab dapat peluang lanjutkan study. Sejak grad in 2010 dulu, ada je rasa nak further study tapi dek kerana diri tu dah gatal nak pegang own money, aku focus kan kat kerja dulu.

 

Sebenarnya belajar ni seronok. Dulu aku grad dalam Bahasa Inggeris dan Sastera. Pastu kena ambik pulak subjek2 dr pelbagai bidang yang langsung takde kena mengena dengan degree memang aku rasa down lah kan. Selalu je rasa ketinggalan. Tapi seb baiklah aku dok depan dan aku paksa utk timbulkan minat dlm subjek2 tu. Boleh la jugak aku catch up dgn all topics tu. Alhamdulillah results sem 1 lulus dgn Berjaya, walaupon tak cemerlang tapi tulah yg aku boleh banggakan sbb lulus semua subjek kan. Tapi sem 2 ni aku macam tak yakin je. Sebab subjek2 tu killer subjects. Econ policy, international relation, strategic management, semua tu macam complicated bagi otak aku utk terima ilmu. So nak tak nak, aku pon paksa lah diri jugak. Macam mana nak tahu performance aku sem 2 nanti tngk lah results exam. Tanaklah aku fail mana mana subjek. Mesti nak lulus dengan gayanya sedih kalau terpaksa repeat the papers.

 

Anyways, taknak lah panjang lebar cakap pasal DPPA ni. Cuma nak cakap belajar ni seronok dan menambahkan ilmu pengetahuan ko. So, rajin2kan lah diri ngadap buku.

 

OK, till now.

 

Adieu~

Mak selalu pesan..

I have to admit. I’m a mommy’s boy. Always been that way since I was small. Memang sangat manja dengan Mak. Though masa kecil dulu banyak gambar dengan Ayah tapi memang naturally manja dengan Mak. So growing up, Mak always there by my side. There were many stories that I can relate to about how I was brought up. Mak taught me how to be independent and humble. Mak always told me stories about my childhood days. One story that she likes to tell people is how my friends, during my kindergarten days, welcomed me when I arrived at the compound. They would chant and call my name from afar when they saw me and Mak together. Mak would say, “Abang ni, orang semua tertunggu-tunggu bila nak sampai tadika. Bila diorang nampak je abang, diorang teriak macam jumpa artis”. I would laugh at this story all over and ask whether it is true or not. And she will say, “Ni betul lah, takkan Mak nak tipu pulak”. We would laugh together and start reminiscing those days.

Mak has raised me well. Taught me so many things and let me experience life in my own ways, my own methods. There would be times I made mistakes but she never raise her hands to punish me. Instead, she, in her very soft tone, would say the nicest things and forgive me for that. Mak would offer advices and stories to teach her kids about life. Unforgettable stories which I hope I can tell my future kids in the future.

Sebab membesar dengan Mak, kekadang tu aku rasa segan nak share masalah dengan dia. Tapi naluri seorang ibu tu kuat kan, Mak macam ada sixth sense je. Kekadang tu, dia ketuk pintu bilik aku dan tanya macam-macam. She knocked my door twice in a week last two years because I spent so much time in the room instead of watching TV. With a smile on her face, she would approach and tap on my shoulder and ask, “Abang ok ke? Ada masalah apa-apa ke? Senyap je Mak tengok”. Seperti biasa, segan nak share probs, aku pon senyap jelah. Memanglah rapat dengan Mak, tapi ntah kenapa rasa segan kot nak cerita masalah. Tapi since dah nak dekat nak kahwin ni, banyak pulak aku bercerita dekat Mak. Semoga dapatlah banyak peluang utk buat macam ni lepas dah berumahtangga nanti. Miss A kena paham lah kan yg si suami ni memang manja dengan Maknya. Hehehe.

So anyways, the point of writing this entry is to deliver the meaningful messages given by Mak to me throughout these years. There are just so many valuable lessons that can be shared with people, and I want my kids to learn the same values just like I did from Mak.

Mak pesan..

No. 1: Jangan ambil rezeki orang. Mak siap kasi situasi bila cerita pasal topic ni. Contoh kita pergi jamuan makan tengahari, dan ada 50 donut utk 50 org tetamu. Walaupun ada seorang dua yg tak makan donut maka tu bukan hak kita utk ambil lebihan tu. Mak pesan, biarlah kita berlapar daripada kita ambil hak orang lain. Masa awal2 cadetship tu, selalu je berlaku hal cenggini. And selalu jugak lah aku selamba ambil makanan lebih yg orang lain tak ambil lagi. Turns out, ada yg kelaparan sebab tak dapat makan. Immediately, terus berubah dan taknak ada perasaan berhutang dengan orang lain.

No. 2: Jangan tinggal solat dan zakat. Kalau spend the weekend at home, mesti Mak akan selalu kejutkan bangun solat Subuh. Tanpa jemu. Dan kekadang tu, aku pon liat jugak lah nak bangun tapi selalu pesan kat diri sendiri, what if ni kali terakhir aku solat? Takkan aku nak lambatkan solat pulak kan. So aku pon bangun dan teruskan siapkan diri utk solat. Kalau nak keluar pergi alamanda or mana mana ke, Mak mesti nak ajak keluar awal pagi. Awal pagi ni bermaksud dalam pukul 10-11 pagi gitu. Kenapa macam tu? So that by the time masuk zohor, kitorang dah boleh balik rumah. Sepanjang keluar dengan Mak, tak pernah rasanya kitorang solat kat surau shopping malls or masjid kat mana mana. Mesti sempat nak balik dan solat di rumah.

No. 3: Jangan kedekut dengan rezeki. Mak adalah seorang yang sangat kasihkan binatang, esp kucing. Pantang nampak kucing kat mana mana Mak mesti nak tahu kalau kucing tu dah makan ke belum. Kalau dia nampak kucing yang kurus kering kat tepi jalan Mak akan sedih dan mengenang nasib kucing tu. Since kat area rumah ni banyak kucing terbiar, Mak selalu singgah kedai beli whiskas utk diorang. So once Mak sampai rumah je, keluar dari kereta, berlari kucing-kucing tu semua pergi ke arah Mak. Terus Mak kasi whiskas kat diorang, tengok diorang makan melahap gila. Rasanya satu kepuasan buat Mak bila dapat kasi kucing-kucing ni makan. Dan effect perbuatan Mak ni telah terserap ke dalam hati aku. So kekadang kalau aku nampak kucing terbiar ni aku pon belikan whiskas utk diorang. Yelah, kucing ni kan makhluk Allah yang tiada akal, tak mampu nak cari rezeki sendiri. So kita, hamba Allah yang bekerja pagi petang mencari rezeki halal haruslah berkongsi hasil pendapatan kita dengan diorang ni.

Insya Allah kalau umur panjang, aku kongsi lagi pesanan Mak. Mudah-mudahan dapat lah jadi pengajaran dan rujukan buat aku di masa hadapan nanti.

 

EPIK

Assalamualaikum

New entry for the month of April!

By now, tinggal lagi 59 hari je till the BIG day. Currently working on our financial matters and fitting baju nikah n baju sanding. Phew! Hopefully apa yg dirancang akan berjalan lancar dan berlangsung seperti yg diinginkan.

Anyway, entry ni bukan nak focus so much on the preparation. Just wanna share some new experiences that I have gained throughout my one year course as PTD cadet.

First lesson: No matter what you do, don’t do it alone

Here’s why. We have been taught this motto, “One for All, All for One”. And we have carried this motto from day 1 until now. So, regardless of what activities that we do here, semuanya berkumpulan. Ada wolf packs masing-masing. Tak kesah lah apa jua objektif or mission geng tu, you have to join at least one. To make you feel valuable to the group. Right now, kitorang tengah berkursus DPPA kat UM. 10 courses to be taken in two semesters. 5 courses each sem. For each course, akan ada group projects and assignments. Nak tak nak, kena juga bersosial dan berkumpulan. Takdak lone ranger here. You have to be accepted by all. And you have to sell yourself to others in order to get the acceptance. <<< this is important. Kalau tak buat macam ni, sah sah akan berseorangan je. You do not want that for the whole 14 weeks.

Second lesson: Friendship is one important element in life

Almost related to the point above, other than family, you gotta need friends in your life. You can have as many as you want or as a few as you want. Totally up to you. But you gotta have one. Someone who can listen to you. Someone who stand by your side through ups and downs. Well, you know the drill.

Through cadetship here, I have met many types of people. Glad to say that I enjoy knowing all of them. Because when you have varieties of people here, you got to know them personally. Knowing their stories, the burden they have been carrying, the experiences you can get from them. With the boys here, there are a few of them are married and still single. Since I am getting married anytime soon, I have been using this platform to ask questions about life after marriage. So many inputs and knowledge been shared.

Another thing about friendship that I want to highlight is the sportsmanship that we have. Currently we (the boys) are really into football and volleyball. Lucky for me that I play those sports so I can participate in both. At the moment, we have established EPIK FC, our very own football team. Kinda late to be implemented but this is at least what we can do to create beautiful memories among us. Something to cherish when we have finish the training nanti. If we look at it, it also can strengthen our bond or ukhuwah. Who knows in the future we might not be able to see each other. Takdelah kita lupa muka masing-masing nanti. **see the EPIK FC photo below**

Actually panjang je points psl friendship ni kalau betul2 nak elaborate. Nanti ada masa kita kupas lagi pasal ni.

 

Cukuplah ni kot pasal lessons that I have learned here.

Just want to say that I am blessed with this chance. This opportunity.

Despite all the criticisms, cemuhan, provocations, negative comments that have been thrown to us, we are still one. Still together since the beginning.

 

 

< Geng alumni IIUM >

 

 

< EPIK FC >

 

 

< EPIK FC 2 >

 

-EPIK-